ah ha!
i'm being bad. i was happy before i left the house. esp i keep wanting to go out! jus before i stepped out. my mood change terribly. and i resort to throwing temper and burst out in tears bcos of my new hair style and blaming him of cos. bcos i cut the hair for his sake. his fav hair style! ok. is still my fault. is my hair. right?
i hate looking stupid with stupid hair. whats wrong. is not me. the reflection. oh mine. sucks like hell. i look .. "gong" and he says "u said that all guys like girls who look stupid" .. worse. that make it worse. he seems to like girls who look innocent with stupid hair instead of me.

ok so.. i cool down. had dinner with him. honestly i dont know wats wrong with me. i rushed down to see him and i try to run away and avoid him bcos of my hair. agh. after dinner got this urge to buy pc games! okay..its been ages. but who cares. i know is quite late to discover sims. but i was browsing these magazines in the saloon and i saw this "sims city " game that u can create ur virtual life. so cool and i told myself i need it i want it and i'll get it. so he buy for me the cd la. and one cd abt hp stuff for himself. and i told him guys who played online games have no life. thats why they idle their time like that!.. i'm just trying to kill time when he goes off to work. but i still see him like.. 24/7 but he kept reminded me abt the ns thing....

sigh. i hate it when some one raked up my past.
and its gonna be another jerk.
i really do not know whether he understand it this time.
no more misunderstandings.
he's getting it. he's learning. he just love me. all he knows is to love me.
hmmm...
he requested i change my hp no.
okay. he'll get me a flip phone. :)
is not like i need anything.
i'm contented.
i jus need some time away from this stressful life.
sigh... let me go.
i need a dance. some drinks. and twirl in my own dreams